Facebook

Facebook - Source of unwanted sin. I knew I shouldn't have reactivate back my facebook. The second i reactivate it back, i can see the same old person I'm trying to convince I'm all good sincerely not buying me, getting me all fired up. Yes, YOU! FRIEND. I've been praying for you, hoping you would one day get save and you talk about me with venom in every words. Do you know how hard it is to fight that barrier you're applying on to show you, to help you? YOU ARE NEVER GONNA CHANGE.

Look at me, I'm 20, in a blink of an eye I will be 21 next year. As far as I have faith that God has a plan for me in the future, deep down inside, I have fear. Things change. There are lots of things you need to be worry about in the future. Aside from studies in university, there's job, working. I've come to realize and conclude that I have only 30% of interest on the course I'm currently taking. I have to think of the prospect of working somewhere far from home, somewhere unknown to me. But i expect a decent more than average salary for my job as an engineer (my only motivation to study right now). Before I climb the steps into university, there is no way I will consider working in church as a job. Miraculously, God changed my views. Serving Him can be joyful. Then there's relationships. Need more I say? Things like these can cause a tug-of-war between sides of your heart. I need a resolution. An affirmation. A confirmation. No one knows what God has plan for me, It is beyond prediction.

Only Hope

There's this show, which my friend have asked me to watch since long time ago, but I couldn't be bothered by it because the title is sooo boring. Huh, that ultimately change one day when i was bored and the show was in my laptop that I decided to watch it. It blew my mind! The show was epic. A mix of blissful love and complete sadness that i drop tears during the show. It was overwhelming! A couple of awesome shows had came out this year of 2011 but I rate this 2002 movie on my top list. A walk to remember =)) And this song in the show, couldn't get it outta my mind!! I could watch it over and over again!

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Okay. Football is overrated! Don't get me wrong, I love football, but what I can't stand is players getting paid like thousands for playing every week! What have they done actually? Sure they do make people happy by playing for their supported club and country, but what do they deserve to get paid like that!? Football players, everyone loves them, everyone worships them, do you know, of all the people in the world, footballers (especially the famous ones) are the ones leading bad examples to today's people. They club at night, they drink and worst of all, they ask for sex from every girl they see in the bar! (Yes, even some of those who were married). Some of the world's most famous footballer, paid thousands like nothing for sex. They're a bunch of lost individuals, lost in the midst of their fame and fortune. For once, I totally agree with my secondary headmaster's statement, "Why do footballer's get paid so high for PLAYING while teachers, the ones who educate the future of the country will never get paid as high as those footballers!" These days, footballers are unpleasant, self-obsessed and they basically don't care whats happening around the world! Again, not all footballers are like that, just that in my opinion, black is darker than white. So, in conjunction with my 2nd semester of university life, I'm gonna organise a campaign called, "FOOTBALL IS OVERRATED!". Joking though, I'm gonna stop watching football and reading news about football, cutting less time online.

25th September

midnight 1.10a.m

Again, the same question arises, always leaving me in total confusion, a moment of emptiness, frustration. Afraid, nervous, anxious of what the future lies ahead. What am I doing now? I can't help to feel that there will always be an invisible timer following me all around. Making all decisions made matter every moment. A moment I've think I made the right decision, and the next time you'll see me against it. I don't know whether you call this indecisiveness or just the fact that you're stuck between unsolved problems. Sure, I'm pretty sick of it, not enjoying one bit of it, hating the halted momentum that's frequent in my life lately. Again, how? when? why?

The man who can't be moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

Got some words on the cardboard, got your picture in my hands

saying:"If you see this girl, would you tell her where I am"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand

I'm not broke I'm just a brokenhearted man

I know it makes no sense, but what else can i do?

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me

and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be

Thinking maybe you'll come back to the place that we'd meet

and you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the streets

Cos I'm not moving

I'm not moving

Son of God

A worship song that I've been into it and hearing for the last few months when I'm stress/bored/feeling the need to worship, so to all believers out there, grab your earphone, sing along with the lyrics!

Hillsong - Son of God

Hold my hand and walk with me
You’re the light that makes me see
On this path my soul You lead
O my shepherd walk with me

I need You more than breath
You’re my hope in You I live
Angels worship at Your throne
Power and glory to You alone

My Savior
Glorious One
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus, Son of God

Jesus, O Jesus.
Holy is the Lamb of God
Jesus, O Jesus
Worthy is the Lamb of God