tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43814195833016556872024-02-06T18:30:08.352-08:00Beyond Predictionelse life wouldn't be that funJoehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.comBlogger62125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-69627164495580423112013-05-30T22:51:00.001-07:002013-05-30T22:51:29.211-07:00SmokerLife of a smoker.<br />
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A man, a heavy smoker who had been smoking as a teenager for the past 4 to 5 years. It all started around the year 2008 till early 2013. His life revolved around smoking. Morning, school time, lunch time, noon, evening, night, you name it, he will always be smoking. But all this act ended recently, he stopped buying packs of cigarettes, to start all over again, to make up all the regrets he have in the past and put it aside.<br />
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Convinced he was over smoking addiction, he moved on and enjoy a much happier, healthier cheerful lifestyle. Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months.<br />
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Is it possible for a man, to actually stop his addiction after indulging in it for the past 5 years? Is it true when a man claimed he has no desire or hunger for something that he once was so obsessed, so addicted to, something he once would die for?<br />
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The man woke up one day, the morning still dark and filled with complete silence.<br />
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<br />Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-10598910213894652832013-03-29T12:24:00.001-07:002013-03-29T12:24:42.756-07:00SatisfactionIt's Good Friday! It will be a very special occasion for me not only because this marks the day Jesus died on the cross 2000 years ago to redeem us from our sins, but the timing of His work in my life.<br />
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First, this marks the time my burden that I was holding onto for a very long time, lifted up from my shoulders. I was bounded by the burden of reaching towards what I've thought was the best there is, and that nothing could ever replace that. But miraculously, He changed that, took away my sorrows, mend my broken heart, lifted me up from the ashes, and I've felt that I can completely surrender to God, to trust in Him that the best is yet to come. Thank you!!<br />
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Through Psalm 147:3, I am healed COMPLETELY. No scars, no bitterness, but the love of God.<div>
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I've discovered quite a few months ago that I've enjoyed serving in the usher ministry as well as helping out the church or cell members. In fact, I am satisfied with what I am doing, not because I know I did a good job, or I was the best usher there, but because I know the fact that someone's looking down from above, knowing every passion and effort that you have poured. This made me want to do more! </div>
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Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-67681926330009083712013-03-24T09:29:00.000-07:002013-03-24T09:29:27.557-07:00Stepping upI can feel the sudden weight on my shoulders and it will only get heavier in the coming future. There are some responsibilities, responsibility as a son, responsibility as a christian, responsibility as a student and responsibility towards myself. I realized that I no longer can carry this responsibilities by just finding time. I need to sacrifice my leisure time and money to go on. It's time to commit, to stand firm. Sure, there are some things that I can be ignorant about, but NO, its time to step up my game.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-27510147758053557092013-03-08T14:17:00.000-08:002013-03-08T14:17:09.103-08:00MorningEverytime when I woke up suddenly early in the morning, lying down, tossing and turning around my bed, unable to get back to sleep. My mind arrived into a world of endless thoughts. I woke up and naturally, when everybody's sleeping, I would log on to my blog, hoping to express my thoughts. But now it seems that I'm in lost of words.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-42241125795278650942013-03-01T13:57:00.001-08:002013-03-01T14:06:17.523-08:00A heavenly sign? or a Nightmare?Shaken up on 5.24 am in the morning, couldn't help but to get up and type it down here.<br />
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Just when I thought I'm finally over "it", the vision, the dream came back and haunt me..beautifully. The desire inside me tells me to give myself one more chance to do what is needed, to fulfill the vision.</div>
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Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-58157642396185378012013-01-23T08:42:00.002-08:002013-01-23T08:42:19.019-08:002013 New Years ResolutionThe day before new year, new years eve, I sat down on my annoyingly small desk, enough to fit only my laptop and some mini sized books. It was a lonely new years eve, and so I figure out that I should do my new years resolution on that night itself. Here's it.<br />
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Its already 24th of January, and I've already struggle with devotions and bible reading since I came back to Sabah. Besides that, some of them require large amount of money. It seems hard, but not impossible. Give me strength Lord to keep this resolution going! </div>
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Josh returns! The title says it all. Truth to be told there's not much maintenance to be done (no maintenance needed at all), just for the sake of making it sound official. I'm currently in my exam period, and I will return blogging again when it is all over. Here's what to expect when I return blogging.</div>
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Blogging and more blogging. I have been out for quite a while, so there will be much to share. And I'll also be posting more pictures and photos as an initiative to lighten up this dark and dull blog. Don't worry, It'll be interesting. Remember to drop again soon!</div>
Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-72964616185579337412012-09-03T08:59:00.002-07:002012-09-03T09:21:42.264-07:00<span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;">Its 4th of September! and i nearly forget about it until when it reach like 2nd of September. *Sigh* Perhaps i'm too busy focusing on my studies. </span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">6th - Thermodynamics</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">10th - Principle of Management</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">12th - Numerical Method for Engineers</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">12th - Microprocessor System</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">13th - Electromagnetic Fields & Waves</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">14th - Electrical Machines & Drives</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div><span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;">What am I doing now? The period from 12th to 14th is gonna kill me inside out. 4 core subjects packed in 3 days. How can i survive it? Whatever it is, the end of exam will be the </span>beginning<span style="font-size: 100%;"> of my birthday celebration! Church YOU camp! YES! Holiday back at Tawau! YES! Food! YES! More food! YES! Friends! YES! Sleep! YES! Time! YES! More time! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES!</span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;">But right now, I don't know how to get through it! Thermodynamics! NO! POM! NO! Numec! NO! MicroP! NO EMF! NO! EMD! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!</span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;">T.T</span></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 100%;"><br /></span></span></div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-76784211808211852222012-06-13T13:51:00.002-07:002012-06-13T13:57:53.104-07:00I take this rare moment out of my hectic life to update my blog.<div><br /></div><div>At times I ponder in the middle of the night.</div><div>Is my decision right? Is it the right timing?</div><div>How? Should I drop a subject to make it less heavier?</div><div>Should I go to meetings which is a distance away?</div><div>I appreciate the efficiency brought out of me through these series of events,</div><div>but whether I can take it is a question,</div><div>and whether my studies will be dealt with a blow is another question</div><div>I prayed and kept my decision in my prayers, that It will be right.</div><div>But one thing is for sure, I will not give up.</div><div><br /></div><div>His will be done.</div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-79930370661722795662012-06-10T02:44:00.006-07:002012-06-10T08:47:28.773-07:0010/6/12Last year, I've said it;<div>Regardless of what happens in the future, this girl will be a life changer sent by God. </div><div>You've made me love and learn, you've taught me patience and perseverance, you've taken my relationship with Him into the next level.</div><div>You open my eyes and change my views.</div><div>You're my reflector, the one who sets me in the direction of His way.</div><div>I may not express this often, or sometimes not even the slightest hint but,</div><div>I hope we can be more, but if its not His will, so be it.</div><div>Whatever the outcome is, I thank God greatly for your presence in my life.</div><div><br /></div><div>I love you and cherish you.</div><div>10/6/12</div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-61073554570066980422012-06-03T07:10:00.001-07:002012-06-03T07:11:05.435-07:00I slam close my book (if there is such term), and said, "I wanna make a difference!"<div><br /></div><div>and I thought, how??</div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-40550847631354226102012-05-11T08:54:00.001-07:002012-05-11T08:54:41.324-07:00It takes a little spark, to set the whole forest on fire,<br />
You play with fire, you get burned. Simple as that.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-35595357751521097062012-04-07T02:47:00.002-07:002012-04-07T03:00:10.251-07:00RenewedThrough this week, RENEWED!<br /><br />He died on the cross and took the punishment for our sins, He paid the price for us.<div>After what He did, how can I just give up on little things compare to what He did? Here's what I'm going to do:<br /><br />1. Study Hard!</div><div>I've been taking extra subjects this semester and it can be heavy, but I shouldn't give an excuse that it is okay to just score an average result because I took extra subjects. Honestly, blame facebook and FIFA instead. I am planning to take extra subjects again next semester. There is a reason though why I do this, so that my final year would be lighter. ć èŠćç!</div><div><br /></div><div>2. Serve the Lord</div><div>To be honest, I feel that I've been neglecting Him for this semester, again I give an excuse for my extra subject. But how hard is it to serve Him as usher or anything compared to dying on the cross? </div><div><br /></div><div>3. Finance</div><div>Renewed motivation...to save money! I've been sort of reckless in spending my money this sem :p</div><div><br /></div><div>Have a "Good Friday" and Happy Easter Sunday!</div><div><br /></div><div>PS: Have positive plans to buy my uncle's car from Melacca, hope everything turns out well!><</div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-36635071516407472092012-03-23T21:00:00.002-07:002012-03-23T21:14:35.256-07:00<div style="text-align: center;">Ever felt you're so far above that it feels like you're the only one? </div><div style="text-align: center;">Where your feet leaves the dust of the earth</div><div style="text-align: center;">Where all your worries and problems stay below</div><div style="text-align: center;">Where your hand reaches out to the sky</div><div style="text-align: center;">A moment of silence</div><div style="text-align: center;">Not looking back, not turning back</div><div style="text-align: center;">But striving towards the joy that's in store above</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">But when its over</div><div style="text-align: center;">You go back down to earth</div><div style="text-align: center;">Back to reality</div><div style="text-align: center;">But with this time</div><div style="text-align: center;">You're ready</div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-1390333111894358742012-03-10T09:06:00.001-08:002012-03-10T09:21:31.403-08:00Friends - Jesus's darkest hour<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: rgb(248, 248, 248); "></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;">Just happen to come across an article</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><a href="http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/how-jesus-fought-in-the-dark-hour?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+DGBlog+%28DG+Blog%29">http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/how-jesus-fought-in-the-dark-hour?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+DGBlog+%28DG+Blog%29</a></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;">How Jesus fight through his darkest hour? After reading this, one word came through my mind, FRIEND.</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;"><b>First, he chose some close friends to be with him. "He took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee" (Matthew 26:37).</b></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;"><b>Second, he opened his soul to them. He said to them, "My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death" (verse 38).</b></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;"><b>Third, he asked for their intercession and partnership in the battle. "Remain here and keep watch with me" (verse 39).</b></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;"><b>Fourth, he poured out his heart to his Father in prayer. "My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me" (verse 39).</b></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;"><b>Fifth, he rested his soul in the sovereign wisdom of God. "Yet not as I will, but as thou wilt" (verse 39).</b></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;"><b>Sixth, he fixed his eye on the glorious future grace that awaited him on the other side of the cross. "For the joy set before him he endured the cross, despising shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Hebrews 12:2).</b></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 12px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; vertical-align: baseline; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px;">It is good to have friends (brothers and sisters in Christ) to open up to when facing your "darkest hour" for it is clearly shown from the scripture above. Thank God that throughout my "darkest hours", I have trusted spiritual friends to share my problems, talk about how God is molding us, how times like this is just temporary, and that everything happens for a reason. Thank God for the peace that He had given to me at times of trial. =)</span></span></p><p></p>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-56622673795210312252012-03-07T05:44:00.002-08:002012-03-07T05:57:54.985-08:00<div style="text-align: center;">Persevere, for there is One that understands you more than yourself. </div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-77921873929409029932012-02-12T04:14:00.000-08:002012-02-12T04:15:36.377-08:00Convincing myself this isn't a suicide mission, that It is worth the try. Good Luck!Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-61247441950862180422012-02-01T08:24:00.001-08:002012-02-02T09:02:21.313-08:00Guns & Grace<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdzk1c516-7CDGrPV9-BJiZ96Un8s6pSZMzXMOXw_SorLj9LFWaHp_j-RPS_siMBgrzkD-4oHZ6VCp7dHs43mEluyJ0iEkab7PkdJPl97r_8V_JDGxGm-DZKqfqnnNbB5pflB4hYEvEFmh/s1600/Island1.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdzk1c516-7CDGrPV9-BJiZ96Un8s6pSZMzXMOXw_SorLj9LFWaHp_j-RPS_siMBgrzkD-4oHZ6VCp7dHs43mEluyJ0iEkab7PkdJPl97r_8V_JDGxGm-DZKqfqnnNbB5pflB4hYEvEFmh/s400/Island1.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5704584462512194594" /></a><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Ever thought of if one day you were left stranded on an island living hopelessly?</div><div><br /></div><div>I've read a book recently, and here's a story that the writer wrote to illustrate how the grace of God can not only save us, but also help us live an extraordinary life! (I'll try to cut it as short as possible.)<div><br /></div><div>There's this sailor who one day was involved in a ship wreck and was left stranded on an isolated island. There was no one on the island, he had no food and shelter. He tried catching fish using his hand made spear, but failed. He tried climbing trees to get its fruit, but ended up only with bruises on his arms and legs. As a last resort for food, he chased wild deer and boar and attempted to kill them with large stones but failed. During the night, he heard wild animals stalking him. Desperate for survival, he found a huge boulder and climb on top of it, avoiding any chances that he would get attack by wild animals. He spend his night on the boulder, cold and shivering. He felt relatively safe, but also imprisoned. Feeling exhausted and depressed, up to this point, he felt hopeless, thinking that he would either die of starvation or being mauled by a wild animal.</div><div><br /></div><div>The next morning, a man appeared out of nowhere in front of the sailor. He told the sailor that he was a messenger sent by his master from the future to help him, and told the sailor that in 3 months time, a ship is going to pass by the island. To get the attention of the ship that would be passing by, the messenger took out a gun. The sailor haven't seen a gun before as it wasn't invented yet. To demonstrate on how to use the gun, the messenger loaded the gun with bullets and pulled the trigger which produce a loud noise. Excited, the sailor received the gun and a box of bullets. However, having mixed emotions, even though the sailor was given a way out of the island, how can he survive in the island for the next 3 months when he struggled to find food and shelter.</div><div><br /></div><div>"There's more!" said the messenger. You can use the gun to shoot down fruits from trees, kill deers and fishes for food, protect yourselves from wild animals and use animals skin for shelter and to blanket yourself during the night. At this point, the sailor is overwhelmed with gratefulness. Suddenly a thought came to his mind and he curiously ask, "messenger, what do i need to give you in return for the gun?"</div><div><br /></div><div>With a smile, the messenger replied, "I know you have no money, and even if you did, repayment is not the reason why I've done this for you. My master saw your sufferings through the time machine and decided provide me with this gun to give you. I had the joy of delivering his gift."</div><div><br /></div><div>In the end, the gun not only spared his life, but also comfortably sustain him for the next 3 months on the island. He is saved!</div><div><br /></div><div>The grace of God not only saves us, but also provides us the power to live an extraordinary life!</div></div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-69603935100431970942011-11-20T03:46:00.000-08:002011-11-20T05:24:10.668-08:00You're still hereGod, I know You're here, I always do. But the battle in my head is really killing me. I know what I've been doing, seeking out for You, Your Kingdom, Your wisdom, Your understanding. Again, I know Lord You are here with me, for my head has been toying with me. Came the day when You rocked my heart, and transform my views and sight and turn it upright, I was sure You were in work. I was broke, and mould. As time pass, I had doubt. God, I know You're still here, You never forsake me. I had doubt, whether it is You who is working, or is it due to my suppressed feeling, running away from something and taking You Lord as my personal "pain-killer". I know, You're still here, You're always here, and I know its You. =')Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-69222421442207854082011-11-17T06:08:00.000-08:002011-11-17T06:14:13.488-08:00FacebookFacebook - Source of unwanted sin. I knew I shouldn't have reactivate back my facebook. The second i reactivate it back, i can see the same old person I'm trying to convince I'm all good sincerely not buying me, getting me all fired up. Yes, YOU! FRIEND. I've been praying for you, hoping you would one day get save and you talk about me with venom in every words. Do you know how hard it is to fight that barrier you're applying on to show you, to help you? YOU ARE NEVER GONNA CHANGE.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-73764753178447357812011-10-24T09:04:00.000-07:002011-10-24T09:28:26.521-07:00Look at me, I'm 20, in a blink of an eye I will be 21 next year. As far as I have faith that God has a plan for me in the future, deep down inside, I have fear. Things change. There are lots of things you need to be worry about in the future. Aside from studies in university, there's job, working. I've come to realize and conclude that I have only 30% of interest on the course I'm currently taking. I have to think of the prospect of working somewhere far from home, somewhere unknown to me. But i expect a decent more than average salary for my job as an engineer (my only motivation to study right now). Before I climb the steps into university, there is no way I will consider working in church as a job. Miraculously, God changed my views. Serving Him can be joyful. Then there's relationships. Need more I say? Things like these can cause a tug-of-war between sides of your heart. I need a resolution. An affirmation. A confirmation. No one knows what God has plan for me, It is beyond prediction.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-78464458055558958732011-10-21T09:35:00.000-07:002011-10-21T09:48:06.291-07:00Only HopeThere's this show, which my friend have asked me to watch since long time ago, but I couldn't be bothered by it because the title is sooo boring. Huh, that ultimately change one day when i was bored and the show was in my laptop that I decided to watch it. It blew my mind! The show was epic. A mix of blissful love and complete sadness that i drop tears during the show. It was overwhelming! A couple of awesome shows had came out this year of 2011 but I rate this 2002 movie on my top list. A walk to remember =)) And this song in the show, couldn't get it outta my mind!! I could watch it over and over again!<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); "><span class="Apple-style-span"><b>There's a song that's inside of my soul<br />It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again<br />I'm awake in the infinite cold<br />But You sing to me over and over and over again<br /><br />So I lay my head back down<br />And I lift my hands<br />and pray to be only Yours<br />I pray to be only Yours<br />I know now you're my only hope<br /><br />Sing to me the song of the stars<br />Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing<br />and laughing again<br />When it feels like my dreams are so far<br />Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again<br /><br />So I lay my head back down<br />And I lift my hands and pray<br />To be only yours<br />I pray to be only yours<br />I know now you're my only hope<br /><br />I give You my destiny<br />I'm giving You all of me<br />I want Your symphony<br />Singing in all that I am<br />At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back<br /><br />So I lay my head back down<br />And I lift my hands and pray<br />To be only yours<br />I pray to be only yours<br />I pray to be only yours<br />I know now you're my only hope</b></span></span></div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-78275671006242380082011-09-24T10:26:00.000-07:002011-09-24T10:51:37.716-07:00Okay. Football is overrated! Don't get me wrong, I love football, but what I can't stand is players getting paid like thousands for playing every week! What have they done actually? Sure they do make people happy by playing for their supported club and country, but what do they deserve to get paid like that!? Football players, everyone loves them, everyone worships them, do you know, of all the people in the world, footballers (especially the famous ones) are the ones leading bad examples to today's people. They club at night, they drink and worst of all, they ask for sex from every girl they see in the bar! (Yes, even some of those who were married). Some of the world's most famous footballer, paid thousands like nothing for sex. They're a bunch of lost individuals, lost in the midst of their fame and fortune. For once, I totally agree with my secondary headmaster's statement, "Why do footballer's get paid so high for PLAYING while teachers, the ones who educate the future of the country will never get paid as high as those footballers!" These days, footballers are unpleasant, self-obsessed and they basically don't care whats happening around the world! Again, not all footballers are like that, just that in my opinion, black is darker than white. So, in conjunction with my 2nd semester of university life, I'm gonna organise a campaign called, "FOOTBALL IS OVERRATED!". Joking though, I'm gonna stop watching football and reading news about football, cutting less time online.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4381419583301655687.post-32029327772013965682011-09-24T10:09:00.000-07:002011-09-24T10:21:33.653-07:0025th Septembermidnight 1.10a.m<div><br /></div><div>Again, the same question arises, always leaving me in total confusion, a moment of emptiness, frustration. Afraid, nervous, anxious of what the future lies ahead. What am I doing now? I can't help to feel that there will always be an invisible timer following me all around. Making all decisions made matter every moment. A moment I've think I made the right decision, and the next time you'll see me against it. I don't know whether you call this indecisiveness or just the fact that you're stuck between unsolved problems. Sure, I'm pretty sick of it, not enjoying one bit of it, hating the halted momentum that's frequent in my life lately. Again, how? when? why? </div>Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10032333202716406031noreply@blogger.com0