Ever felt you're so far above that it feels like you're the only one?

Where your feet leaves the dust of the earth

Where all your worries and problems stay below

Where your hand reaches out to the sky

A moment of silence

Not looking back, not turning back

But striving towards the joy that's in store above

But when its over

You go back down to earth

Back to reality

But with this time

You're ready

Friends - Jesus's darkest hour

Just happen to come across an article

http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/how-jesus-fought-in-the-dark-hour?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+DGBlog+%28DG+Blog%29

How Jesus fight through his darkest hour? After reading this, one word came through my mind, FRIEND.

First, he chose some close friends to be with him. "He took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee" (Matthew 26:37).

Second, he opened his soul to them. He said to them, "My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death" (verse 38).

Third, he asked for their intercession and partnership in the battle. "Remain here and keep watch with me" (verse 39).

Fourth, he poured out his heart to his Father in prayer. "My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me" (verse 39).

Fifth, he rested his soul in the sovereign wisdom of God. "Yet not as I will, but as thou wilt" (verse 39).

Sixth, he fixed his eye on the glorious future grace that awaited him on the other side of the cross. "For the joy set before him he endured the cross, despising shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Hebrews 12:2).

It is good to have friends (brothers and sisters in Christ) to open up to when facing your "darkest hour" for it is clearly shown from the scripture above. Thank God that throughout my "darkest hours", I have trusted spiritual friends to share my problems, talk about how God is molding us, how times like this is just temporary, and that everything happens for a reason. Thank God for the peace that He had given to me at times of trial. =)

Persevere, for there is One that understands you more than yourself.

Convincing myself this isn't a suicide mission, that It is worth the try. Good Luck!

Guns & Grace

Ever thought of if one day you were left stranded on an island living hopelessly?

I've read a book recently, and here's a story that the writer wrote to illustrate how the grace of God can not only save us, but also help us live an extraordinary life! (I'll try to cut it as short as possible.)

There's this sailor who one day was involved in a ship wreck and was left stranded on an isolated island. There was no one on the island, he had no food and shelter. He tried catching fish using his hand made spear, but failed. He tried climbing trees to get its fruit, but ended up only with bruises on his arms and legs. As a last resort for food, he chased wild deer and boar and attempted to kill them with large stones but failed. During the night, he heard wild animals stalking him. Desperate for survival, he found a huge boulder and climb on top of it, avoiding any chances that he would get attack by wild animals. He spend his night on the boulder, cold and shivering. He felt relatively safe, but also imprisoned. Feeling exhausted and depressed, up to this point, he felt hopeless, thinking that he would either die of starvation or being mauled by a wild animal.

The next morning, a man appeared out of nowhere in front of the sailor. He told the sailor that he was a messenger sent by his master from the future to help him, and told the sailor that in 3 months time, a ship is going to pass by the island. To get the attention of the ship that would be passing by, the messenger took out a gun. The sailor haven't seen a gun before as it wasn't invented yet. To demonstrate on how to use the gun, the messenger loaded the gun with bullets and pulled the trigger which produce a loud noise. Excited, the sailor received the gun and a box of bullets. However, having mixed emotions, even though the sailor was given a way out of the island, how can he survive in the island for the next 3 months when he struggled to find food and shelter.

"There's more!" said the messenger. You can use the gun to shoot down fruits from trees, kill deers and fishes for food, protect yourselves from wild animals and use animals skin for shelter and to blanket yourself during the night. At this point, the sailor is overwhelmed with gratefulness. Suddenly a thought came to his mind and he curiously ask, "messenger, what do i need to give you in return for the gun?"

With a smile, the messenger replied, "I know you have no money, and even if you did, repayment is not the reason why I've done this for you. My master saw your sufferings through the time machine and decided provide me with this gun to give you. I had the joy of delivering his gift."

In the end, the gun not only spared his life, but also comfortably sustain him for the next 3 months on the island. He is saved!

The grace of God not only saves us, but also provides us the power to live an extraordinary life!

You're still here

God, I know You're here, I always do. But the battle in my head is really killing me. I know what I've been doing, seeking out for You, Your Kingdom, Your wisdom, Your understanding. Again, I know Lord You are here with me, for my head has been toying with me. Came the day when You rocked my heart, and transform my views and sight and turn it upright, I was sure You were in work. I was broke, and mould. As time pass, I had doubt. God, I know You're still here, You never forsake me. I had doubt, whether it is You who is working, or is it due to my suppressed feeling, running away from something and taking You Lord as my personal "pain-killer". I know, You're still here, You're always here, and I know its You. =')

Facebook

Facebook - Source of unwanted sin. I knew I shouldn't have reactivate back my facebook. The second i reactivate it back, i can see the same old person I'm trying to convince I'm all good sincerely not buying me, getting me all fired up. Yes, YOU! FRIEND. I've been praying for you, hoping you would one day get save and you talk about me with venom in every words. Do you know how hard it is to fight that barrier you're applying on to show you, to help you? YOU ARE NEVER GONNA CHANGE.